I need to pay more attention when I turn the corners in the hallway. I always end up running into somebody.
Today, I ran into an
old friend. I wouldn't call this a reunion or a significant even event- considering I see this person
every single day and all that this event was actually comprised of was me bumping into him and saying,
"Oops sorry 'bout that," and walking on. But nevertheless, this little doodad (not sure what to call it) had a certain impact on my day. It occured to me at that moment that there are a lot of people I've grown really far from. Some that were inevitably people I would grow apart from. And others, I wouldn't really have expected to.
I remember how that friend and I use to be
real friends- not to say we aren't on good terms now or anything. But it sure seems different than how it use to be. I guess even the closest friendships can grow apart in time without the proper taking-care-of.
And well, I suppose that is because relationships (just as a matter of fact) require alot of effort. It' s funny cause I don't think everyone seems to get that. And even if they do (including people like myself) we tend to do nothing about it.
I know that when it comes to picking up and returning phone calls, I am the worst person at it. And yet, when it comes to phone calls from people I've just met or people who rarely call, I tend to be a little better about the returing part. Now there's definitely something wrong with that picture. It seems as if we tend to take for granted those people who are always there for us.
Maybe it's cause after awhile we assume that they'll always be there. And while it's true that they very well may be, how can we ever know for sure?
It's a mystery I tell ya. And honestly, there's probably no good answer out there. And that's most likely because there really is no excuse for taking your loved ones for granted.
I've come to realize that maintaining relationships aren't as easy as everyone thinks. Yes, there's a level of trust where you can do your own thing- but at the same time I don't think it's ever a bad thing to remind people you love them.
"So it's not going to be easy. It's going to be really hard. And we're going to have to work at this every day. But I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever, every day."
That's what Noah says to Ally. And I can't stress how important it is to
work at something. There's always going to be bumps along the way. No two people are perfect. And I think that's what it's all about. Compromises. Reconciliation. Understanding. Through the
good and the
bad.
"But love, I've come to understand, is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other every day. "
Everyone is so hyped up about this "love" between a girl and a boy. They're always searching and looking and hoping they'll meet "the one" as soon as they can. And yes yes, I want that too :) Who doesn't? But if you can't take care of the relationships you already have now, what use is it to have another? Appreciate those people you have
right now. Treasure them. Thank them. Love them. ♡
Of all those things I listed: clowns, scary movies, cockroaches... people scare me the most. I find them to be quite terrifying. Trusting people has become incredibly difficult for me. All the pretending. All the misleading. All those wrong intentions. Eh, they get to me. I think it scares me to get close to people again- and I can see it happening, I'm building up that wall again. I'm quieter these days. I talk but I don't really say what I want to say. All the talking people do, it scares me how words get so easily twisted and they always spread. I think it scares me to meet new people. Because once you meet them, its hard to let them go. And once you start caring, it's hard to pretend that you don't. I know we're all humans, prone to making mistakes- so I guess it's just time for me to be brave. . .
