Of all those things I listed: clowns, scary movies, cockroaches... people scare me the most. I find them to be quite terrifying. Trusting people has become incredibly difficult for me. All the pretending. All the misleading. All those wrong intentions. Eh, they get to me. I think it scares me to get close to people again- and I can see it happening, I'm building up that wall again. I'm quieter these days. I talk but I don't really say what I want to say. All the talking people do, it scares me how words get so easily twisted and they always spread. I think it scares me to meet new people. Because once you meet them, its hard to let them go. And once you start caring, it's hard to pretend that you don't. I know we're all humans, prone to making mistakes- so I guess it's just time for me to be brave. . .

Because as much as I am scared, I really do want to know what it's like to care about someone. I want to know what it's like to let someone in. I want to be able to trust and love completely.