When it comes down to it we're kind of all the same.
We love and we hurt.
I guess we're all a little broken, whether we'd like to admit or not. All of us have something in our past that makes us afraid- something we'd rather just not repeat. And even though we often think that being scared is what make us weak, if anything, I think it makes us all the more human.

So I've been learning quite a bit of "stuff" these last couple of weeks. I guess going out with Daniel has made me more open to other people's feelings. I keep saying I guess cause I feel like "highschool dating" is so looked down upon in our Christian society and writing about my relationship with him makes me that much more vulnerable to judgement. But oh well, here I am writing about it anyways, I've learned so much about people through Daniel it's not even funny, and although I know some people may not fully "approve" I think I'm becoming a more understanding person because of him.

I use to be a 100% hopeless romantic but being in this relationship has forcefully made me accept reality. And it's not a bad thing- reality is what you'll always face, so I guess it's better to get with the program early. I'm not really sure how to organize all my thoughts right now, so here's just a few of the things I've been learning these days.

I think, I run away from my problems. I know I've done it before.When people are upset with me, instead of listening and trying to hear them out from their viewpoint, I always take it personally and push them away. Stop criticizing me. Who are you to say that? I say. I realize now that when my proud is wounded, I become an incredibly bitter person. And it's not anyone elses fault, it's mine.

I've also been learning that: each of us run on a different clock. Some of us have wounds that take longer to heal than others. I never thought I'd be on the other side of the fence- waiting for someone to open up to me because of something that had hurt them in their past. In my mind it had always been poor me that I never thought to think that someone could be afraid of me hurting them. How close-minded of me huh?

We're all kind of the same. And I truly do believe that every person is good at heart. God made us in His image right? So there must be good in every person right? Or even if we are "inherently evil" as some people say, we all must have the capacity for love right? So instead of picking at how different we are, instead of picking at each of our imperfections, maybe we should focus on the fact that we're in one way alike.

I was wrong to be so harsh on that "venting" entry. I'm very selfish. I know. I'll try want to do better. Nobody is perfect and I need to be more patient and empathetic.

Dear You,
I'm sorry. I'm sorry because I know I was at fault too. I know we get frustrated with one another, but it's only because we care that much. It's been half a year of knowing each other. 141 days actually. 141 days of talking to each other (because we talked EVERDAY since we met). Thank you. Thank you for caring about me. Sometimes we're just both a little bad at showing it. Haha. You've opened up my eyes a lot. I'm glad God let me meet you. I really really am (: