Me, Myself, and I
"This is the most important part of your highschool career, Christina. You need to work hard, get good grades, and do really well on the SATs- by that, I mean 2200 at least. "
I just got home from dropping off Calvin and Ryan at church. Rawr- I really wanted to go.
I miss going to Home Group. I haven't been in forever. I miss the singing and praising, the bible groups, the meeting new people, the everything. Bleh, I'm feeling so overwhelmed these days. There's so much to do and so little time. I know junior year's suppose to be tough but I really hate having to give up so much of my time for work and school. SAT classes alone take up 10 hours of my weekend. I am seriously gonna blow my mind if I hear another thing about right triangles and finding the sum of blahblah consecutive numbers.
Everyone says "you're going to have to make sacrifices." But at this moment I really don't know if I'm making the right ones. I feel like we're all constantly preparing for this "future" when all thats really happening is right now.
I've got the grades. I'm taking the classes. But I'm not accomplishing anything worthwhile-
I'm lacking something. I really really am.
Blehk, you know what else I don't like?
I don't like how I complain so much.
No one likes to hear people whine.
No one likes to hear about how my days not going right. -____-"
I hate being so serious and tense-
I hate having to say "I can't" to my friends because I'm so busy.
Goshness.
You know what I need to do?
I need to stop focusing on myself so much.
I need to step outside of my little world and accept the fact that I'm not perfect.
After I finish practicing for Solo/Ensemble, I'm gonna start writing my Christmas cards.
Ya, I gotta start.
I just got home from dropping off Calvin and Ryan at church. Rawr- I really wanted to go.
I miss going to Home Group. I haven't been in forever. I miss the singing and praising, the bible groups, the meeting new people, the everything. Bleh, I'm feeling so overwhelmed these days. There's so much to do and so little time. I know junior year's suppose to be tough but I really hate having to give up so much of my time for work and school. SAT classes alone take up 10 hours of my weekend. I am seriously gonna blow my mind if I hear another thing about right triangles and finding the sum of blahblah consecutive numbers.
Everyone says "you're going to have to make sacrifices." But at this moment I really don't know if I'm making the right ones. I feel like we're all constantly preparing for this "future" when all thats really happening is right now.
I've got the grades. I'm taking the classes. But I'm not accomplishing anything worthwhile-
I'm lacking something. I really really am.
Blehk, you know what else I don't like?
I don't like how I complain so much.
No one likes to hear people whine.
No one likes to hear about how my days not going right. -____-"
I hate being so serious and tense-
I hate having to say "I can't" to my friends because I'm so busy.
Goshness.
You know what I need to do?
I need to stop focusing on myself so much.
I need to step outside of my little world and accept the fact that I'm not perfect.
After I finish practicing for Solo/Ensemble, I'm gonna start writing my Christmas cards.
Ya, I gotta start.
posted by Christina at
3:40 PM
2 Comments:
christinaa, i totally know what you mean.
i haven't even been picking up phone calls because i feel like i need to focus on school.
this is so. stressful.
and i don't even know if it's worth it.
it's okay, we'll get through this. <3
do you, by any chance, go to boston academy??
cuz that's where i went 2 summers ago..
and about the stress.. i hear ya!
but it's okay to whine and complain. just not to the same ppl all the time. switch it up so they don't think you do it ALL the time.. lol
and i made the same sacrifices, but idk if they were the right ones either..
still don't know if they are.
i think i'm just tired of my church. ppl there are too close-minded, but i guess that's just my excuse to not going to church on friday nights..
this is kinda long, but keep on chuggin'
하은아.. 파이팅!!! :D
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