Change

A lot of things annoy me. Many things in fact. Stupid things. Little things. Eety bitty nonsignificant normal things. And a lot of times, probably the majority of times acutally, I'm pretty blunt about it. I don't know why... but it just started happening... more particularly then before and it became a bad habit. I would just say something like "Ugh, that person really annoys me," and I'd be really insensitive. I've become really mean. That's the point of this entry! Because being mean, I hate to say it is really easy. It's so easy to blame other people. But the thing is... I know it's not really them. I have too much pride I think. I've got to let go of it! Because honestly, I really hate arguing about things. I really do. It makes me feel all negative at the end. Like a really bad after the taste of something.

So I've been trying to be more positive. That's my goal for the week. Well a goal for always actually. I kind of messed it up during lunch today. Maybe I am "too serious." But there's tomorow and many more days and I think I can do it.