Good thing about stuff like this is that every time you learn a little more. This time I know better than the last time how to deal. Nah, it's not any easier
, but it helps. And that's the good part. One day I won't even have to cope with this crap (lol, just kidding not crap)... but anyhow, for now, that's what I'm doing. Coping. One step at a time.

December. So it's not a forever kinda thing. I just got to make sure my intentions are right. Don't need any of that secretive ulterior stuff. Next time I really will wish the best for that person.

Hm, it's not really the same as before. It's different. I'm not waiting for a someone. I'm waiting for my heart to heal and embrace this whole purpose. No bitterness. No. I refuse.